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I feel like I’m going down again.
Uh.. May I just write this here?
I mean, may I write on my blog what I want?
If I feel the need to write here I’m feeling down, may I write it here?

1 week ago on May 10th, 2013 |J
Tagged as: #Elle Keith Barrell #life #feelings #blog #personal stuff #personal blog #May I? 

This afternoon when I just woke up after this dream, the boy I liked too much a couple of years ago texted me.
Asking me stupid stuff like if my brother at work can now print shirts.
But when I saw his name on my cellphone… My heart skipped a beat.
I mean, I know now he’s got a girlfriend. But you know… We didn’t even say “bye”…
I even though it was texting me because he was forming a band again and he thought about me as a singer.
But no. He just wanted to know for the shirts.
I… I cried a bit. More like my heart cried a bit. I didn’t phisically shed tears.

1 month ago on April 19th, 2013 |J
Tagged as: #life #love? #old love #old crushes #old crushes that still hurt #past #feelings #sadness #: ( 

utabay replied to your post: Fuck off! Feelings are not stupid! If you’re not…

whoa what happened?

I just read a post which said that crushes and feelings are stupid and I just got mad.
Also I’m trying to finish the letter for Markiplier and I got extremely… sensible and sad so..

1 month ago on April 19th, 2013 |J
Tagged as: #life #Elle Keith Barrell #Jasmine #utabay #feelings #sentiment #memories #depression #darkness #death 

Fuck off! Feelings are not stupid! If you’re not able to feel anything, then it means you’re already dead! And if you’re not feeling anything while your heart and your brain still keep you alive, then you died by the most tragic death! Fuck off! Do not say things like this! Nevermore! I know what it means to not feel anything and that is the worst thing ever! That is the most dark thing ever and if you’re dead like that, you have only to ways to follow: suicide or coming back to life with all your strenght! And if you need help, just call! But do not say things like these anymore! Feelings are not stupid! FEELINGS ARE NOT STUPID!!!

1 month ago on April 18th, 2013 |J
Tagged as: #life #Elle Keith Barrell #feelings #depression #vent #I let out all my thouhts #I really mean this #Fuck off 
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lillius-bellamour:

maybe-im-a-leo:

JImmy Page playing piano.

i cannot describe to you how much i love this and how much i love him and how much i just died

this is so beautiful

1 month ago on April 1st, 2013 |J |VIA -SOURCE
Tagged as: #Jimmy Page #Sir James Patrick Page #piano #music #life #love #crying #feelings 

It was dark around him. He didn’t know where he was.
He felt like he wasn’t alone, so he tried to look around.
Suddenly he saw Keith standing in precarious balance, somewhere in a lower level of ground, almost completely sorrounded by fire.
“Keith!!” he screamed.
Keith looked at him. Then smiled a little.
“Keith!!” he screamed again.
He could now see the ground he was standing on.
Quickly he laid on the ground holding his hand to his friend.
“Take my hand, Keith!! Quick!!” he screamed.
Keith simply kept looking at him, smiling a little.
“Keith!! Take my hand!!” he screamed again.
Then he blinked very quickly.
And Keith disappeared.
Not a single word came out of his mouth. He was completely surprised and scared.

George woke up in the middle of the night, with eyes wide open, sweating so much his t-shirt was completely wet.

- E. K. Barrell
Keith the poet
Chapter unknown - Nightmares
2 months ago on March 8th, 2013 |J
Tagged as: #Elle Keith Barrell #Keith the poet #Nightmares #fanfic #Roger Keith Barrett #George Roger Waters #Syd Barrett #Roger Waters #night #darkness #fire #feelings #too much feelings #Pink Floyd #music #tears #life #love #sadness #sorry 


is-it-me-for-a-moment
answered your question: When did I become the one I am now?When did it…

I went through this. I’m still sort of going through this. You’re not a fool, it’s nice to have quiet.

Thank you for comprehending.
Most of the time I don’t know how to explain this to people, and when I do as simply as I can (Like say just “I would like to stay in silence for a while”) everyone here just laugh at my face.

2 months ago on March 7th, 2013 |J
Tagged as: #Elle Keith Barrell #life #silence #feelings #I can't explain myself #I know #stuff #thoughts #help #things I need #And I know you are going to thinkg this is only about you #well no #it is not #you are NOT the centre of my thoughts #everyone has his own problems #so don't even try to think this is just about you #because you're doing wrong #and don't take this as an offence #is-it-me-for-a-moment #replies #phases #comprehension #relief